Temperatures

Summer can be terribly hot in Karachi and terribly cruel. While the nights may get pleasant, the days are hot enough for the coolest people to melt like butter on a frying pan. It's hot is an understatement in Karachi.

This happened one afternoon as we were having a black out, I was playing chess with my cousin. I was feeling hot so I took my shirt off and was sitting just in my jeans. My cousin followed my actions a while later as he noticed that how at ease I felt with lesser clothes on my body.

There was a trail of sweat going down in the middle of his chest. It looked very inviting to me and everytime he was concentrating on making his next move in the game, he would completely get lost and I would fixate myself over his chest movements. It was late in the afternoon and I think everybody must have been sleeping. I couldn't resist and started massaging his nipple.

He was shocked at my bravery. He looked over shoulder to see if anybody was standing or if anybody was up, when finding no one he gave me a smile to continue what I was doing. It didn't take much for his nipple to get excited. I moved closer and looked into his eyes. He looked back into mine and then proceeded to kiss me. Ever since we first kissed a few weeks back, we both had started to like and do it pretty often. Kissing had dramatically reduced his shyness and I was loving this change in him.

I broke our kiss and got up to close the door. By the time I turned around, his jeans had come off and he was completely naked. I didn't waste anytime getting down to nothing with him. I pushed him on the bed and lay on top of him, we started kissing again.

I don't know who started first but we started grinding our crotches into eachother. Sometimes he was on top of me and sometimes I was on top of him. It didn't take long for either of us to cum but even after ejaculating over eachother, we didn't stop kissing. We kissed for a long time that our cum dried and we had to painfully detach ourselves like dogs do after having sex. This was the first time either of us cummed without jacking off and led me to want to do anal with him. But that's a different story on a different day. Take care!

Temptations

As mentioned in my previous post after a few night of frolicking I left my cousin alone for a night or two. It wasn't that I wasn't enjoying it. But the fact that I wanted to do alot more and I don't think my cousin would have allowed me to go further.

When we lay in bed that night my cousin asked me why am I being so reserved all of a sudden. I told him what was on my mind, and he asked me what did I have on my mind. I said that I won't tell him but if he is curious he would let me do it. He lay quiet for a while and didn't talk to me. I had almost fallen asleep but he shook me awake. I told him we will talk about it tomorrow. I was feeling very sleepy.

The next morning when the two of us were alone, he asked me again about what I want to do. I told him that there is no time right now and we will do it later tonight. I guess he was feeling very horny at that moment because he started rubbing my groin. I noticed he was already hard. I told him that somebody can come and it's very risky. He wasn't stopping and I felt that I was about to cum so I pushed his hands and promised him that at night we will do what I want.

At night when everybody had fallen asleep we took off our pants but kept the shirts on. It was strange being semi naked with somebody else in the bed for the first time. I turned towards him and made him turn towards me. I grabbed both of our dicks in the same hand and started jerking them off. I think it proved to be more than he could handle because his breathign got faster quicker than before. I increasing speed so as to get him to cum, I love seeing a guy's face when he cums. It is of pure unspeakable pleasure.

As he was about to cum, he placed a hand on my shoulder and pulled me closer. I could feel his hot breath strike my face. He came a few seconds later and when he was coming, I couldn't help myself from kissing him. I leaned in and went for it. People say that their first kiss isn't magical, I disagree. My first kiss was very magical. The moment our tongues collided, I cummed and there was a huge warmness connecting the two young bodies. My cum stained hand let go of the dicks and travelled up to his face. I guess the feel of cum on his face kicked my cousin's senses to life and he pulled himself away to run to the washroom and cleaned himself up.

When I came back from cleaning, he was already fast asleep. I didn't bother to check but I was feeling very deighted at what had just happened.

Touch

My earliest sexual encounter that I can remember dates back about 13 years. I was 14 that summer, a cousin of mine of similar age was at my house for a sleep over. I knew I was attracted to guys at that time but had never been attracted to my cousin. However that night when we lay on bed together I could not keep my hands to myself.

I started off by casually stroking my finger across his back. He didn't protest or give any signs of discomfort. I started moving down the back so he asked me what am I upto. I told him nothing but continued further. He then told me to stop but I am not one of those people who back off when told to do so. I kept at it.

Finally he realized that I would not stop so he switched sides, now he was facing me. His eyes were closed but I knew he was awake. I must have had a naughty smile on my face even if I can't remember it right now. I don't even remember what made me do what I did next. Since his back was no longer facing me my hand started playing with something else. His penis!!!!!!!!

He was hard. Remembering the discussion with a friend of mine that all young teenage boys are hard when they go to sleep. I started stroking it hoping to get a reaction from him. Initially he didn't say or do anything but then he grabbed my hand telling me to stop. I asked him if he likes the feeling. He said he does so my next move was to insert my hands into his pajamas and touch his bare dick. His eyes were closed but he was breathing heavy. I let go off his penis to undo my pants. I asked him to do the same with me. He didn't so I grabbed his hand and wrapped it around my penis. After that I resumed my stroking and a few moments later my cousin had created a wet spot on his abdomen. I was still hard but not close to ejaculation. My cousin had not stroked me at all so I had to guide his hand up and down my shaft, eventually he got the hang of it and didn't need to my support to do so. A few moments I came. We lay there absolutely still for a while. I was quite excited at what had just happened, but not quite sure about how my cousin was feeling. I got up and cleaned myself in the washroom. When I came back into the room, my cousin went and cleaned himself up. We didn't talk after that the same night but just went to sleep.

A similar incident happened the next night and the night after that. I didn't sense any tension at all during the day between us, but only at nights when we had sex did my cousin get shy and silent. On fourth day I decided not to touch him at all and what happened after that would be in my next post.

My cousin is to date my longest sexual partner, stretching over a period of almost nine years. The last time we had sex was when we were 23. He moved away after that to America and even though we have met a few times after that nothing has happened between us. We don't discuss it either but there are quite alot of things I went through before that. However if I ever got the chance, I would definitely like to apologize to my cousin for seducing him. 

Toxic

Haven't we all done things that we regret?

I know I have done quite alot of them. I turned 27 last month. I was celebrating my birthday with my family and friends. I am the youngest son but not the youngest child of my family. I had just cut the cake and my father asked me casually about what do I plan to do with my life. He followed that with the story of how at 27 he began his own business which was his biggest accomplishment in life.

As I tuned out of my father's bragging, I realized I have nothing to claim except for used condoms, burnt cigarettes, naked polaroids, cum stained lap top, three SIMs I would never again use, designer underwear, a pair of handcuffs, some hearts I broke and a love that I lost because I wasn't ready to be with just one guy for as long as possible. I could not stay on the thought for long as the party erupted into life once more.

A few days later, a friend of mine was involved in an accident and died a few hours later. It all got me thinking that life is way too short to waste. I have a huge pile of shit that has accumulated over the years. I don't even remember all my wrong doings and even if I could, I can't apologize for all of them. I am not that strong yet.

But I have to start somewhere. So I am starting anonymously as a blogger and one day I would perhaps be able to muster up enough balls to actually confess to those I have hurt and apologize. Hopefully they will forgive me and if I die in an accident, at least I'll die in peace.